Nathan's philosophy

about

When I first made this site I made the philosophy commune which went over some of my political views and the philosophy. Its messy and incoherent. It was more of a peek into whatever I was thinking at the time as if I cracked open my head and give you a look inside. It was raw and abstract but not anything anyone besides myself would read and understand. You can find the archive here.

Now that I am redoing this I want to make it more coherent, honest, and almost spiritual in a kind of way if you can call it that. You can skip to whatever parts you want but I recommand you don't because its going to read alot more like a story and will slowly develop ideas throughout.

The Geist

Throughout this website you will see me use the word geist alot. Geist is a German word that can translate into three different words in English: ghost, spirit, and mind. I always use it in place of spirit for its more flexible nature and the more abstract yet almost mathical and mechanical ways it can be used.

Case against the mythical

I don't believe in religion, god, spirits, baby fucking jesus, magic.. or any of that bullshit. In every way imaginable I am indeed an atheist. Everything can be demythized. Before you go saying "I am not religous, I am spiritual" and go running to your mommy girlfriend that someone on the internet hurt your feelings and you need your unwashed cock sucked to feel better about yourself I have much more to say: Once you truly begain to demythize something the things you discover are much more beautiful, artist, and meaningful than any myth or superstitions can ever be.

Take evolution for example: there is much beauty, meaning, and a chaotic sort of inner peace that can be found knowing the way every species comes and goes into and out of existance and how new species come to be from a sort of process that can be slow and careful at times and fast and rough at others. A complex process that requires thinking about really small and really large numbers on a scale are brains are not designed to understand. Don't know about you but that gives me a sort of sad joy to think about and makes me think very big deep thoughts. Much more beautiful than something as bluntly dumb as god.

How the brain works

The brain looks like just a mooshy wet pink blob. I want you to really think about that sentence. Imagine holding your own brain in your hands. What does it look like? what does it feel like? smell? sounds it makes when you play with it? even imagine the taste if your willing to go that far. Congrats, you just used something I call signal pathing. Your brain has many abstract components that are associated with different functions. They dont serve different functions and arent built for namable functions. Just assoicated with. By pathing signals through different components each one designed for processing data in a special type of way your brain can in the most effective way with its given resources process many types of information thrown at it in many ways. For example the same lanauge can have a spoken version, written version, sign lanuage version, braille.. the brain can signal path information can whatever snese its using to read that lanauge and send it to many other parts for processing. Things like the minds eye, internal monologue... are all just artifacts of signal pathing. Also you used signal pathing to read all of this and will continue to use it all the time for rest of your life the same your brain have always used it.

You are multiple

you are the result of multiple consciousnesses all inside the same head. The left and right side of your brain when seprated with sugery go out of sync and each one starts acting independently. Thats only as far as they can split down. If each half itself could be split in half like that we couldn't be able to test it. For all you know you could have a 100 conscious brain pieces up there. Consciousness is just the ablitity for the brain to refence itself. Kind of like how your currently using your brain to read something about now the brain works. Consciousness alone isn't the end all.

Darwinism

As of writing this I am part way through a book on the subject. Galápagos by Kurt Vonnegut. It uses a fictional story as a pivot point to go about understanding how evolution actually works. Go check out it out. Well anyways I am writing this to explain what evolution actually looks like and the issues with Social Darwinism. Evolution in nature is the process of making species more well adapted through nature selection. Its a nearly mathical process and it does not care what we think is the best. The only thing driving the process is making species well tuned to their environment. For example evolution might make a species less physical strong in return for liter weight and less required food to survive if thats what would make it better fitted for its environment. It does things like this all the time take flightless birds for example. Humans see losing flight as a downgrade but evolution no longer saw a need for those birds to fly and instead designed the birds for other uses like swiming, faster running speeds...

Case against Social Darwinism

Social Darwinism is a construct of societies understanding of the world. Its a reflection of the bias of those who have been given control, those who write the history books, those who use their artificially sense of confidents and undeserved power to keep their name alive after death. The few who are worth remembering aren't bought into the light until they been dead long enough for their revolutionary ideas not to fuck up the status quo set by the current narcissists in power. Nikola Tesla didn't get into the spot light until his ideas lost the revolutionary edge and conflicts with the people in control of the electric companies, Martin Luther King Jr was under attack by the US government his entire life but once the more progessive side of his message got forgotten the same people attacking him named a day after him and made one of his more tame speeches his legacy while the rest have been forgotten to time. Thats not even including the countless things forgotten to history. The small wars, the forgotten scientists and artists... Nothing is in a vacuum, all these things enteract with each other in a large choatic system which adds up to greater change and the movement of history. If you want to see Darwinism applied to human society and history read up on some old good Karl Marx and his dialectical materialism.

Hybrids and the origin of humans

Check out macroevolution. It goes into details about hybrids and how humans are monkey pig hybrids.

The Universe

The Universe is a chaotic system of really small interactions and really large interactions on a mass scale all running into each other in a nearly murderious manner. Everything can be understood through the lens of dialectics. Everything is the interaction of engery. The things we know and understand is just the result of interactions of engery. Even matter can be viewed through this lens. I don't believe in the big bang. Instead I have my own theory.

The creation of the universe

The Universe didn't come from nothing. Everything have always existed. In fact outside the universe only everything exits and there is no nothing, no voids, no where safe from particles colliding at speeds that makes light speed look like a childs bikes. Outside the universe everything interacts with everything forever in all directions. Its like tv static that goes on forever. Just like tv static since its random if you just so happen to pause during the right time and zoom in you might find a picture of something. It might even just so happen to be a picture of you! The universe is one of those. A time and place in a random existance that just by the chance of randomness is something coherent. Like finding ShakeSpeare in The Library of Babel. The engery interacted in a way to create what we call the big bang. Instead of creating things it just opened up an area safe from the chaos. A place where the interions are limited in a way. Constraints that makes limited yet complex and coherent structures of engery possible. These structures is what matter is. Things light speed is a example of one of these constraints. Its nothing uncommon. Its just a matter of time until something like this happens.

God

The universe may not be anything like a human brain or any type of brain found on earth but it is still a natural information processing machine. It doesn't will things to happen like a religous god. Instead its a high being bound to the same forces and constrains as us. It only has the power which are given to it also like us. It only ever sees what it can and sense what it can.

Humanities reason for existing

I am a big Kurt Vonnegut and his book Cat's Cradle made me start to think that humans do have a reason for existing but its not pleasent! I kind of went insane reading it so just hold on for dear life as I pull nonsense out of my head. In the book there is something called ice-nine. You can read about it on this wikipedia article if your too lazy to read Cat's Cradle. Spoiler: ice-nine gets into the ocean and destroys the whole planet. It made me think: I wonder if the universe brain is in pain in its own sort of way and are reason for existing is to create a type of ice-nine that destroys the universe. I have a sort of surreal depression that makes existing a pain. Its transends any sort of normal pain or sadness. Its deeper than just the survival parts of the brain to warn us if something is wrong. Its a short circuit that causes sorts of thought loops and blunt conscious that causes a sort of pain that is slow and drawn out but adds up to something no bullet or knife could cause. I often deeply relate to the universe brain and hope it doesn't have to feel the same sort of thing. The universe can't end itself and no human will destroy willfully: humans are going to end the universe by mistake just like when ice-nine got into the ocean. Humans may be fucked up pig monkey men and freaks of nature but we are good at one thing: destroying things by mistake. Evolution designed us for that. Part of natural selection is testing each species and Adam and Eve is a medifor for that test. It proved we are well designed to destroy things by mistake so it picked us.

By raise of hand who skipped ahead to this part of the page? Feel called out don't you (: Views on social issues aren't just some isolated optinions, they are a part of someones ideology and a result of how their morals enteract with the world around them. Everyone has an ideology even if they don't realize it. For example christian views are very closely tied to christian ideology and effects everything they do and think. "God created the universe, gave us the 10 commandments, sent jesus down, will send you to hell if you dont go to church..." Thats quite view shaping and mind effecting wouldnt you say so? If a christian tells you they support lgbtq+, women... rights they are either a fool or a lying fucker. Dont believe them for even a second because they will fuck you over and everyone else to. Religion is like this in general because it was created by social darwinist narcissists who use their lies to control. "you will go to hell if you dont follow the commandments of an all powerful being that you cant ever talk to and you must trust the words of people above you to know what he wants" sounds like lies created to control doesnt it? Real social change only comes when religion and power structures are brought into question. If it was up to the rulers and religous leaders of the world we would still be in the dark ages.

Abortion

New people are created when people fuck in the magic way. Take this from someone who engages in same sex activities: dicks going into pussies isnt the only way to have sex. The other ways dont create babies. It gets even better, even if you do wanta fuck the magic way smart people created plastic thingies to stop the people making seeds from going into the human egg. The same smart people also made pills and lots of other wonderful things to stop the pain of creating humans and the suffering they will face when they are pulled into this terrible world kicking and screaming.

It gets worse: when people are stupid, poor, and in times of terrible hardship they only ever increase the rate they fuck the magic way and without seed stoppers. World War 4 could happen and the birth rate would only go up. This creates more humans who are forced to live in this shitty world. But even when people are too stupid to fuck the other ways or use seed stoppers we still have one last line of defense: abortion. This beautiful treatment removes the unborn flesh of a human from its mother before its anywhere close to consciousness, before it have had a taste for the pain of the world.

Christians view women as private property, people making machines, personal maids, human sex toys... even though they have the same human brain and are nearly just as dumb as men christians think the idea that a women owns her own body is too much. They want women to be raped by stupid men, they want to control everyones sex life and make sure they only ever fuck the magic way and without seed stoppers. They want more people forced to live and christians even made sure everything fun is a sin, outlawed drugs that give people an escape from the things christians do, made sillycide way more difficult than it needs to be, took over the entire planet... all because their ideology calls for everyone on earth to live a christan life of suffering. Abortion is a beautiful thing fight for it to stay!

Womens rights

Even though I am gender-void (I made that up, if you have a problem with that go fuck yourself) I am assigned male at birth and still often use a male mask for close minded people so they will not open their pie hole about it. This makes me feel stupid and uninformed about womens rights, and that is because I am stupid and uninformed about womens rights. But what I do know is that even though all social issues are equally important womens rights are at a very high level of importantness and should be the first thing on the mind of any true leftist.

"Social progress can be measured by the social position of the female sex." - Karl Marx

I encourage all men to learn how to just be friends with the women in their lives. A message to the men reading this: the women in your life will teach you things and help you develop as a person in ways other men never will. Women make for the best comrades. As soon as you make every interaction with women about weird horny stuff, discrediting them for something... everything goes to waste. If your a incel and blame women for everything sorry to break it to you but it was other men that fucked you over not women. If your willing to put those feelings aside the friendships you will gain with women as time goes on will be much more rewarding than just fucking alot and when the time finally comes for you sex will be a lot less awkward and more personal and borderline spiritual. And the insight that removing sex bounaries in friendship brings might just contribute to realizing your bisexual like it did for me. For men fighting against women will only ever keep them closed minded and brain washed.

Race

Race is a clear example of how social darwinists use social constructs to control. The narcissists in power brain wash people to hate and fear other groups of people so they can put up borders, keep out artist and intellectual works, keep their people stupid... everyone has the same big, faultly, lying brain so whats the point in sorting everyone into granfalloon groups? Its to make sure everyone is too busy fighting each other to realize they should have been fighting the people in power the whole time. They lie to us about what critical race theory is because they dont want you to know crt a dialectical and enlighted way of viewing race. Neoliberalism is a ideology of dumbing things so it made everyone think racism happens on a person to person interaction scale when really racism happens on a systematic level.

Disabilities and mental illness

This society is so fucking terrible that it even has to pick on people with disabilities. Wanta see a doctor about your fucking back? well too bad get a fucking job! Wanta fucking job? "Sorry we just so happened to hire a able body even you know way more about the field and your disability will not get in the way at all what so ever". To make things worse thinking differently in are closed minded is treated like having a fucked up back. I was diagnosed with a thinking differently disability called autism. It doesnt fucking matter that spoken language works just fine for communication because everyone decided to instead use nonsensefull looks on their face half the time. I am going to tell you right here there isnt any logic behind how you fuckers communicate with looks on your faces. Its a bunch of bullshit and all of you are oddly on the same page about it and you will go as far as to call someone disabled for not being on the same page about it even though you are too fucking stupid to come up with a logical system for the face looks, document it... you also think not putting up with ear bleeding noises is a disability. Dont you fucking dare pretend to feel bad for us when you are perfectly willing to fully support a society that systematicly makes us disabled. Are brains work just fine as they are you are just so nonsensable and hold neurotypical views so high up that you are perfectly happy supporting the bullshit no matter how many of us commit sillycide because of the way you treat us. Its a text book example of social darwinism indeed.

lgbtq+

Message to the anti-lgbtq+: Many of you think being anti-lgbtq+ makes you cool and edgy so lets take this one step at a time. Are society is held up by social constructs that controls who can have sex with who, what clothes you can wear, what kind of name you can have, what pronouns you can go by... lgbtq+ are harmed by these social constructs and want to live their life freely. By telling them they cant do those things and making rules to stop them you arent cool and edgy, your as punk as the fucking pope! Call yourself an anarchist? If you cant handle the idea of sexual and gender anarchy than I dont think your ready to actually take down the system because when it comes to that stuff you will quite happily keep the system up.

All moral arguments against lgbtq+ depends on the existance of some god that for whatever reason declared that stuff sinful. If your non-religous and anti-lgbtq+ your a fool and more brain washed by religion than you think, if your religous and anti-lgbtq+ than your not only a narcissist simping asshole but a intellectual and moral slave to your own religion, if your pro-lgbtq+ and religous your quite comfortable supporting neoliberalism and believing the hate has nothing to do with a systematic ideology deployed by the church and its just so happens to be.

Lgbtq+ can be thought of in terms of marxist historical materialism. It may be rough right now but thats part of the process of evolution. No one quite agrees on even the smallest of details but thats the beauty of it all. Right now lgbtq+ is still based in some amount of social constructs and still a slave to some amount of bullshit are society created but it will evolve, it will bring us even more freedom... for that to happen you gotta accept the movement even in its rough state and help it grow into something greater. The narcissists controlling the system will feed you talking points to stop you from helping the movement remove power from the them. Dont fall for their bullshit they are just scared that the more free we become the less we will support narcissist bullshit.

There is no scientific reason sex same relationship has to be taboo, there is no scientific reason someone cant choose their own pronouns, there is no scientific reason someone cant consent to sugery to remove their fuck organs (no matter how harmful and pointless some random study claims stopping them is against their freedom and saving people from themsevles is a narcissist journy of mental masturbation: not a heroic act), there is no scientific reason there needs to be seprate mens and women bathrooms, there is no scientific reason someone cant choose what labels they use to describe themselves due to the fact all language is human made and completely socially constructed start to end. Any and all arguments like "someone is what they are born as" and "men cant play in womens sports" is complete bullshit and not based in nature because nature couldnt fucking case less if those things happen. Nature doesnt fucking care if a person born with a penis wears a skirt and pisses in the womens bathroom, a man playing in womens sports is not going to cause anyone to get struck by lightning. All of you anti-lgbtq+ are so fucking dumb you think that a concept a bunch of people came up with is just as natural as the fucking trees.

If not getting in the way of peoples lifes and their personal choices isnt enough for your neoliberal brains here is a fact for you: the percent of people that detransition isnt the same as the percent who changed their minds. Thats right, are society is so fucking hell bent on making it a living hell to be transgender that they detransition due to the pressure even if they personally would love to continue transiting if they could. The regret rate is much lower than the rate of that and even than the statics alone still doesnt tell the whole story. If you can only learn 2 things from me let it be that 1: statics lie, and 2: fucking with peoples personal lifes never helps anyone.

Economics and socialism

This is going to get fucking messy. Well anyways, I am going to tell you what real socialist economics is. The USS shit is a fucking terrible example of socialist economics. Dont give me that socialism only works in theory bullshit because here is the truth about socialism: socialism is not when the government does stuff, its not when everyone is paid the same no matter how much they work, its not when everything is ruled by a dictatorship... all socialism really is in truth is the concept of common ownership of things like the means of production (aka large factories, farms...). We do not want to seize your PS5 or your steam deck. We dont want your fucking house, car, cat, grandma... No, we dont give a fuck about your grandmas small sock making business. On the grand scale of things grandmas homemade socks are nearly a hobby even if pays for her trips for See's Candy. Grandmas socks wont make any difference on the economical level socialists tend to think in and anyone that calls themself a socialist and attacks your grandmas sock business is a fool and a asshole. For an idea of what a decent use of socialism looks like take a look at project cybersyn.

The evils of capitalism for dummies

Imagine everyone has a bag of rice. Some people have very little and others quite a bit more. In rice school everyone is told to plant a bit of their rice and save a bit for eating. For those who barely even have enough to eat this sounds like crazy talk while for others they grew up on a family farm that have been doing quite well for ages. One day someone name Tod from a good family rice farm finally goes out to start his own farm. Tod's family gives him a nice big bag of fresh rice to use to start his own farm and he heads out to find a good place for a rice field. While he is traveling he quietly complains how heavy the bag is and even think a few things "it would really hurt to be hit with a bag this size". He finally finds a nice place for a new rice field but someone already got few only seconds before he did. Tod notices they have a much smaller liter bag than him so he walks up to them and bang! He fucking hits them right in the head with his bag. He even dumps their whole bag into his. This gives him a new idea: he starts hiding in a bush and attacking anyone that comes to that spot and each time his bag gets bigger and heavier. Soon its too heavy to even lift so now he finally decides to plant some.

Now Tod is faced with some issues: protecting the rice he cant carry with him, balancing mananging a farm and attacking people... so he decides to go to some poor children and very kindly offer them some rice. He quickly wins over their trust and tells them he can get them more rice if they work for them. He has all of them setup the farm and start planting while he goes out to fucking hit more people and steal their rice. Whenever he comes back he carefully one at a one pulls one of the children aside to tell them he will give them a raise if they report any stealing and if they steal they get knocked out by the bag. A few get reported and knocked out until everyone started truly fearing Tod.

The ones who were known for always reporting got a few raises and started staying by Tods side all the time. Tod put them in charge of watching over things while they he was gone and even sent them out a few times to knock people out for him. They always looked down on everyone else and thought they got the good end of the deal. One day one of them decided to use their high pay to start their own farm and even knocked out some smaller targets aka kind of a downed scaled version of what Tod was doing. When Tod found out this was happening he had that person knock out by the heavest rice bag right infront of everyone else on the farm. This was the first time when of the higher ups even got knocked out and it completely changed everything. Now it was clear no one was safe.

As everyone learned who Tod was they would start running and as soon as they learned he was in good enough shape to outrun them even carring a large bag they would give up and drop their bag in fear of getting hit. Sometimes he would find those same people days later starving and they would finally give in and agree to be work on his farm. Once he had enough workers to create an army he sent them to take out an entire family farm and make it his own. After that he didnt even have to take over family farms. They would agree to pay tax in return for not getting taken over by his army. Tod even paid the rice schools to only teach the things he wanted them to teach.

The end, I dont fucking do happy endings! I ask of you to reflect on this story and think about are society. Think about all the evil companies buying out smaller companies. Think about prices going up faster than wages. Think about all the ways these big coprations fuck us over. The ultra rich dont get to where they are simply planting their money in investments and working hard to grow their companies. Thats only part of the story. They handle their money like a fucking weapon and use it the same way Tod used his heavy bag of rice.

Socialism in practice

If reading the story of Tod is making you think of other ways rice can be handled like community rice farms where everyones fair share of work will keep things going but they can still make their own on the side, rice market system and groups of people setup to stop people like Tod from grow... and you compare these ideas and thing how they could be created than you have the mind of a socialist. If you look up to Tod as a great business man, think "well, that is just the way things are", twist things up to think Tod is somehow helping people by giving them jobs and feeding them even though he quiet clearly just caused pain the whole time... than get the fuck off my website you social darwinist! Thats right, socialism has never had any set in stone policy or economic models. Thats because socialism is for thinkers and problem solvers, people who never look at something and say "things are what they are", people who can pull in inspriration from even the most disconnected sources and create something new from it, people who know things can be done better and dont see the shitty ways things are done as something to put up with... any sort of coherent policy or economic model would ruin the entire point, it would be like making a free form jazz artist play a hit song perfect note by note or tell Bob Ross what he can and cant paint. What is why Karl Marx come up with a framework for use to use instead of any set in stone plan of action. What is why people like Stalin call themselves a socialist and be quite far seprated from the rest. Just look at how much fucking infighting on the internet we have just for an idea of how from seprated we can really be from each other even with so many common goals.

My travels

I was raised conservative and left it behind when I discovered they didnt really stand for freedom and truth, I went libertarian until I discovered they also didnt stand for freedom and truth, I went anarchist until I read a tiny bit Karl Marx and got caught up with all the labels on the internet and didnt know what to call myself; Finally, I was reborn a socialist when I rediscovered my will to learn and come up with new ideas that been with me my entire life but almost went away with all the effort school, mainstream interenet, and society went through to try to distroy it. Read books and think deeply about everything, dapple around in everything but never stick. Surf your car radio and think "is what the radio voices telling me just a distraction?". Conservative radio has the weirdest fucking ads. No, I do not need to see a doctor about my balls, I am not looking for a service to turn my 5 million dollars worth of retirement funds I dont have into gold and silver to keep it safe from the lizard people, I do not need to sign up my dog for an anti ak-47 course I like my indistractable terrorist guns thank you very much. Conservative radio: what a bunch of mind numbing nonsense.

Speaking of mind numbing nonsense fuck the polical compass, fuck the X number values tests, fuck all the nonsense labels for ideologies no one is part of that haunts the polical forms and chatrooms of the internet. No, I dont give a flying fucking about marxist leninist maoist trotskyist MAGA neonazi fascist antifasc neo-dronestrike-obamaist anarcho-bidenism. They turned it into fucking pokemon. Instead of making polical compass memes shut up and read a fucking book! It doesnt need to be boring Karl Marx book. Read Breakfast of Champions, right now, before I fucking kill you!

Decentralizated non-privatized and the wonder of worker unions

You know what we need? More non-profits, not the mozilla shit. Some dam good ones. All the democrats checks arent working, they arent going to mail you life long healthcare in the mail, mail you your retirement money you lost in a conservative gold and silver scam, mail your coworker the overtime pay management cut so they can buy a $40,000 vacuum cleaner no one needed... sorry children santy aint coming this x-mas! This year we gotta be are own x-mas elfs. By that I mean you, I am not a human (more on that later) no matter how often you fuckers pull me into your problems. Wish I could help but sorry, the void calls for me. Profits are stupid, infact there is a direct connection between low profits and how good a company is. Sorry to break it to you but non-profits, low-profit companies... get more shit done, pay and treat their workers better... than for profit companies in the same field. Anytime a for profit company has more to offer its not going to last long, once they are set in place they will up prices and lower worker pay, once Tod wins over the trust of the poor children he treats then like shit and turns them against each other. Again with Tod, just avoiding the for profits alone isnt going to fix much, just like Tod they will take out everything and make things worse to the point you are forced to either eat Tods rice or rice from a family farm paying taxes to him or face starving to death. The only fix is to beat Tod himself with a bag full of his own rice. To do that is going to need lots of people to agree to work together. Aka a worker union.

Striking isnt the only thing a union can do either. Now days with fancy computer stuff strikes are nearly useless. Take a look at the chile trucker strike for an example of that. Though also with fancy computer stuff you can be oh so very much more evil with running a worker union. Get your IT nerds, webdev nerds... to join the union you can use the companies very own website to leak secret information, make the entire company network go crazy, black mail a boss with office sex footage found on the CCTV... Tech nerds, office workers, middle management, cleaning and HAV people... often dont like to work together and alot of them dont even feel like a worker union could help them and when most worker unions are bought out, too small, and not creative enough or bald enough they actually do cant help a handful of the time. Thats why you human skill people and thinking skill people gotta team up! I am not a human so its a given I dont have the human skills so without a human skill person I cant do much and so far no human skill person who isnt scared of me in sight.

Nonhumanism

I am not a human. Yes, you are a human (most likely). But not me. Dont go screaming to be with the "but your dna" or "you were born from humans" bullshit. You are a wolf and I am a coyote. Quite similar but also just different enough to be a different species. The line between different species isnt as far as you might think and is something scientists often debate.

Some nonhuman things about me include:

Brain and thought pattern differences that medically show up as autism but differ greatly from the DSM-V and others diagnosed with autism I have met.
Different effects from marijuana and kratom then what the humans get.
Differences in how my nervous system works.
As a little child I grew at a freakishly fast rate and stopped growing much younger than any other human.
I was able to grow a full beard nearly freakishly young.
I require closer to 10 or more hours of sleep to be fully rested instead of 8.
I am a bit colorblind and sensitive to light
Differences in how often I eat and weight gain/loss. I naturally eat alot at once than go a while without eating and I dont gain or lose weight more than 2.3kg and I stay around 68kg even though I am around 183cm tall. The weight loss and gain can happen in a very short amount of time.
Light makes me sleep like a baby and makes it harder to wake up. It takes me longer to fall asleep in the dark but its easier to wake up in the dark
Differences in how my brain handles habit forming, dopamine, and addiction.
Differences in body propartions

Living in human society as a nonhuman

Living in human society as a nonhuman fucking sucks. Imagine being a cat living in dog society. Everything is built with dogs in mind, jobs shifts are all planned around dog hours, the restaurants serve dog food in dog propartions, the stores sell only dog products, the toys are dog toys, the parks are designed for dogs, the vets specialize in dogs, everyone talks with barks instead of meows... If your a cat in that society you really gotta look out for yourself because no one else can understand you even if they pretend to. Everyone will give you advice that does not work.

Employment and nonhumanism

Nightshifts: the greatest blessing and curse. I am still getting through school and lack any employment history as of writing this. Most of the options for that are customer service jobs. When people can barely understand you when you talk, you can only do one task at a time, lack any people skills, need time to work on your interests... that aint going to work. And to make it worse employers discriminate against me. If you arent working customer service employers still want people skills. They want their toilet cleaners and floor sweepers to have people skills. They want them to spend half their shift sitting through pointless meetings. Thats the magic of nightshifts! Only freaks and weirdos apply for nightshift and they have a high turn over rate. All the people who call for pointless meetings are asleep and you only ever have to talk to a hand full of people. Do you know what I do with the time saved not going to pointless meetings? I do homework, read, take naps, and work on this site! I love the outdoors and I get cold too easily to go out there at night (I dont mind the dark) so I often wish I could work days but with the no bullshit vibe of the night. I hope to one day go self employmented to avoid all the human bullshit.

Revolution and nonhumanism

When I sit on my ass and think about all the shit going on I often think about the song The Revolution Will Not be Televised by Gil Scott-Heron. Then I remember that even though I grew up in what many call a very inclusive generation all you mother fuckers treated me like shit! Thats because the modern stage of inclusiveness does not extend to neurodivergents completely and does not extend to nonhumans at all. Think of it this way, the american civil war got rid of legal slavery but was quite limited, the civil right movement did a bit more... same with how the lgbtq+ movement has evoluted over the years. The problem is nonhumanism is limited to just me and maybe a few others I dont have the resources to track down (if you are one feel free to send me a email or something) and even than we wouldnt have any common ground except being nonhuman.

I know revolution is not perfect and I am willing to engage in pushing the evolution so we at least get sometype of change but I will let you know its up to you to make change. I am in full support of modern progressive movements even if I know they are lacking something. Even than I dont have the power to engage in revolution the sameway you can due to the fact I am a nonhuman. I am not welcome in social structures and only servce as a fly on the wall, no one understands me when I talk, I have no power what so ever to push a message across. As a human you have special powers I couldnt even dream of having. You can engage in those social structures, get your fair share of message pushing power. Even as small as it might seem to you as someone without those powers I will let you know its greater than you believe. Its a superpower!

Message to my generation: even though you treated me like shit I beg of you to engage in progessive revolution in all the ways I cant. Dont be one of those gen-z trump supporters and dont stop at voting blue either. The revolution will not be ~~televised~~ on social media!